Self Worth

Many people tend to suffer in silence, public smiles private tear (a novel by Helen Van Slyke and James Edward)

Many people have been made to feel worthless and the end result is never good.

When someone feels worthless , they feel as if they are insignificant and have nothing valuable to offer the world.

Often people hide feeling of anxiety, depression, worthlessness. At times such feeling are not self imposed.

Contrary to the popular saying, sticks and stones may break my bones… words really do hurt. Words can strip ones self worth. Negative words never contribute to positive transform. I’d say “the self” is a social construct and some people tend to take that, internalize it to become the being that they are.

Everyone worries about their standing in the world, whether professional, social, or in terms of looks. How do people usually judge where they stand in something? They look to other people.

At the same time should one/ anyone live a life governed by people think or say about them. The anxiety, depression, feeling of worthlessness can be triggered by people’s perceptions.

When you spend time wondering how other people perceive you, you create stories that are often far from the reality. Hence ending up questioning yourself worth.

You are valuable for who you are, not for what you do.

You don’t need to prove to anyone that you are amazing,know your self worth. Your self worth is not determined by anyone but yourself.

NOTE TO SELF

#Don’t live a life of trying to prove you worth to anyone. If they don’t get you they just don’t.

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You Are Destined For Greatness

You may not know what the future hold. You may lose track of your vision and stray a little bit. You maybe be constantly failing to achieve your set goals in life. You maybe failing relationship wise. You maybe feeling lonely and feel that you don’t matter. You maybe holding yourself back from doing what you are supposed to be doing, fearing what people may say. You maybe letting people’s opinions dictate life changing decisions in your life. You maybe afraid to rock the boat because you want to fit in. One thing I know is that you are destined for greatness. God has placed each and everyone of us on earth for a purpose. You just need to believe in yourself, life is full of ups and downs. Life if full of disappointments, but you need to learn from such to move on with life. Let the disappointments be stumbling blocks to your success.

@Rukie_t

Let the lion in you roar

MENTAL HEALTH IN COLONIAL ZIMBABWE.

Before colonial rule, there were no psychiatric hospitals and mental patients stayed with their families in their communities. The ways that families and communities were involved in maintaining mental health in some African societies differed from the western ways. Colonisation came with cultural adjustments which brought changes to the social, economic way of the Africans. Colonialism came to define and enforce behavioural normality and isolate abnormality in the body politic. Colonialism relies on the internalized and pathological notions of dependency on the part of the Africans.

Sources in the history of colonial psychiatry reveal a great deal about what psychiatric practitioners, judges, police considered pathological. In colonial Zimbabwe the history of mental health belongs to the larger discourse of medicine and power, which refers to the dominance of a medical framework in the policing of social boundaries. The greater part of the discourse on mental health in colonial Zimbabwe is found in the works of Lynette Jackson.

In colonial Zimbabwe, western medicine was introduced by missionaries but most of the missionaries were not trained and had limited resources; hence, it left most of the Africans not catered for. The colonial government was forced to create rudimentary public health systems although most Africans preferred indigenous healers. Most of the scholarship on mental health is primarily on the history of psychiatric institutions while its evolution, how it affected different races, how psychiatric patients with different mental disorders were categorised has been not explored.

The history of mental health is entwined in the medical discourse. The scholarship on the history of mental health has looked at the ways in which colonial psychiatry has framed black men and women as insane in colonial Zimbabwe.Jackson argues that colonial mental health policy in Zimbabwe served as a powerful indictment against the colonizers “civilizing” claim. Jackson’s records of the history of Ingutstheni and notes that there were a growing number of female inmates from the period of 1911 with only 6 women to 23 by 1919 and throughout the 1930s and 1940s the female wards were described as agitated and unruly and overcrowded. Jackson argues that the asylum in Southern Rhodesia played a significant role in maintaining colonial social order.

Colonial psychiatry was an arm of the colonial state’s repressive power apparatus. The control of space, place and mobility through policies and practices of spatial organisation and regulation was a key variable in the project of colonial domination. Jackson’s study tells the story of Ingutsheni and its inmates, the stories of madness, race and colonialism are woven together in a holistic and sophisticated way. In Jackson’s study (Surfacing Up: Psychiatry and Social Order in Colonial Zimbabwe) her focus was primarily on the historiography of gender mainly regarding the mobility of African women. Jackson looks at constructions of the “mad woman” and examines the case records of 50 African women detained at Ingutsheni between 1932 and 1957.

Tadisa’s Journal Cont’d

It was barely a month and already he was feeling the pressure from all ends . It took him nine months to land a job in a manufacturing company which was far from his dream job. What he earned was just a meager wage which did not equate with his dreams and aspirations. The sleepless nights and hard work in college hadn’t paid of as yet, if ever they were to. Him being the first born son in his family meant everything. Although both his aged parents and his prayers of getting a job were answered, it was the beginning of yet another nightmare. His parents and siblings looked up to him for survival, him living in a big city wasn’t easy with so many responsibilities. Although he tried to put on extra hours at work, it never seem to make any difference. College for him became a facade which masked impoverishment.

“If only I had listened…”

he constantly found himself thinking.

Mental Health Crisis

There is a serious mental health crisis in Zimbabwe. There is a real shortage of psychiatric institutions, psychotropic drugs and mental health specialists. The problem in Zimbabwe is that mental illness is a condition that is not taken seriously. With a population of approximately 14 million people there are about 14 psychiatrists countrywide.

The country has one child psy­chiatrist who is in the private sector.

Generally, there is lack of awareness about mental illness, and patients are routinely stigmatized. In most African societies mental patients are deemed mad or possessed.

The mental health of the people of Zimbabwe needs to be addressed in line with any health reform initiatives. Mental health is an important economic factor in any society, it is part of an individual’s capacity to live a fulfilling life; hence disturbance to an individual’s mental being has a detrimental effect.

An extract from my PhD Proposal