What if the present moment, present life was nothing but a flicker of imagination while you are still in your mother’s womb. Would you want to be born after glimpsing into the world? You are not certain of the life that you’ll have seen if it is a true replica of the outside world.What if I’m being too presumptuous and in need of a gyroscope to balance life as it is. They say when life gives you lemons make lemonade, but the inner me is fuming on such naive cliche statements. Anyways, who are they? What if I don’t what to make lemonade? What if I want to make lemon tea or lemon water?This takes me to a seminar I attended once. I liked how people talked of their success stories it was really motivating. But then again, what if one’s success story isn’t going to be the same with mine. What if the ABC stages that one took isn’t going to do for me. One man’s meat is another man’s position. What if you simply need to succeed on your own terms, choose what to do with your own lemon.What if you are your own drag down in life. The choices and decisions that you’ve made. The friends that you have or the way you’ve presented yourself to the world is the cause of the turmoils you face in life. It is human nature really to always find something or someone to blame when things head south. What if you just need a reevaluation of your life to get things back in order, if ever there was an order.What if you lived a carefree life and didn’t have to worry about people or anything. What if you were to put yourself first in all circumstances? Would that be selfish? What if you stop being a people pleaser? What if you are failing to reach your maximum potential all because you are failing to air your voice, or you are afraid to step on some people’s toes to stand by what you believe in.What if you live your life for you? After all, we die once and live every day, somehow you’ve got to make it count.
Who knows what the future holds? Some times you just have to sail through the uncharted waters.
Time and time again, I find myself repeating Pirates of Caribbean sequel. These movies hold one of the greatest quotes ever. One of them being:
For certain, you have to be lost to find a place that can’t be found, elseways everyone would know where it was.
Nothing of greatness ever comes easy. Some times you need to get lost for you to find yourself in life. To get yourself to that place that can’t be found. What a paradox right?
What happens after a heartbreak?
Sometimes good things come to an end, or do they? Can you quantify a broken relationship as good?
What happens after a breakup?
Do you take down the post and pictures on social media. All those sweet nothing messages which attracted likes and comments. Would they have been real? Or maybe, you are to create another account leaving the one which holds a lot fond memories. The Instagram and Facebook posts, stories and all, do you need to breakup with them too?
What really happens after a breakup?
Do you need to call friends and family members who used to compliment your relationship to tell them you’ve broken up? Do you need to make an announcement or a broadcast to everyone to avoid the later on questions on how your significant other is doing or rather, your used to be significant other?
What happens after a breakup?
What happens to the gifts you use to give each other? Do you throw them away. Do you burn them? Do you give them back? Do you keep them for old times sack?
Whatever happens to the memories that you shared? Do you need Pabbie, the rock troll to remove them. The sweet loving memories you used to cherish and probably promised to cherish forever.
What happens when after a breakup?
One of the best decision I’ve ever made this year is to start 2018 without resolutions and opted for goals instead based on a priority list. It worked pretty well.
I am really grateful for the year of 2018. A friend of mine got married and I became an uncle later in the year. My sister had her white wedding. My bestie had his traditional wedding. A long time sahwira (friend) also got married. My favourite aunt got married. Another sister of mine got married. What a year it has been. Truly a blessed year.
One of the best blessing I’ve or we’ve encountered as a family is my mother’s knee replacement OP. A surgery which cost approximately 16K she ended up paying only 2K which was covered by medical aid. Thanks a lot to orthopedic doctors from the US who gave my mum a free surgery. Truly appreciate it.
My biggest lesson for 2018 was self worth.
I am thankful of the dark moments too. Learnt one or two lessons. It is during these moments I got to realize how strong a person I am.
Above all I thank the Almighty.
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Boring Boring Boring. That how my Christmas looks like.
Woke up at 0900, went for shopping with my sister and OK was packed. Stood in line for over an hour. Late breakfast. From there onwards watched a series. Friend stopped over chatted a bit and went sleeping. Took a bath around 1600hrs (😁😁😁) and continued watching my series.
Christmas day was really boring. But I kinda like it in a way because I know my pocket was safe, when 50 days of January arrive I bet I’ll be prepared for it.
New Year’s Eve please be nice.
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One of the greatest lessons I have learnt this year is self worth. There was a point in my life where I let people walk over the decision I made and I allowed it. A time where people took my kindness, my silence for weakness.
Most of the times I allowed it in the name of wanting to be good or avoiding a confrontation but in the end it was me who was hurt. It was my ego, myself esteem which was hurt in the process. I would let people’s perceptions dictate my life’s decisions. When you spend time wondering how other people perceive you, you create stories that are often far from the reality. In the end questioning yourself worth.
I then got to read Who Moved My Cheese, a very good read and it made me realize something about my life, change.
“What you are afraid of is never as bad as what you imagine. The fear you let build up in your mind is worse than the situation that actually exists.”
You don’t need to prove to anyone that you are amazing. Your self worth is not determined by anyone but yourself. Never live a life of trying to prove you worth to anyone. If they don’t get you they just don’t.
Through the Young Scholars Initiative (YSI), INET provides support to students, young professionals, or others who embrace new and critical ways of thinking about the economy. YSI fosters conversation among those who wish to engage with new economic thinking and connects young scholars to the Institute’s vast network of economists.
My achievement this year was to present again at the YSI Africa Convening. I have really grown as an academic through these conferences . I remember my first international presentation last year, the nerves had me by the throat. This year’s conference was so much better I was able to do a lone presentation unlike last year.
YSI provides young scholar a platform to discuss on social, political and economic issues. Currently working on my very first publication with a friend from Somalia and I really hope all goes well.